Drugs and guns... I hate both. Something very tragic happened here on Tuesday. A friend of mine got shot, by one of his best friends, how terrible is that? And then his friend turned the gun on himself, and left 2 small children with no Daddy :( I don't understand it, everyone is trying to figure it out, it's just so damn sad.

Aunt Judy just called, we have to leave by 7am. So I've been scrambling around trying to make arraingements for Doug and the kids. I think I've got it down.

Well I guess it's time to stop talking to myself and go public...nuthin fancy here folks, lucky I figured this much out! LOL

Welcome to My Life...as I see it!

Well it's back to school for one kiddo after a long weekend. Josh went off this morning to start a busy week with 3 tests. If he does good on them and gets good marks on his report card in a few weeks, he gets to have his hair dyed blonde. Right now it's quite red and he doesn't like it at all.

Tomorrow I am off to the city with Uncle Wayne. Aunt Judy called last night to see if I could go with him. He has to have some kidney stones zapped and has to have a driver with him. I hope Aunt Judy is going too, Uncle Wayne is a quiet man and doesn't say too much, might be a quiet drive. I also have to find out what we are taking, I hope he doesn't plan to take Nan's car, it's big and I've never driven it before, so I don't want to drive it in the city. I can drive in the city as long as I'm driving something I'm comfortable with, otherwise I panic.

On a good note, I have darn near all my Christmas shopping done, only 3 pays till Christmas! Doug and I went shopping on Sat. and bought 2 Game Boy Advance Games plus a game to go with each. That was an expensive venture. I still have to get something for my sissy and Doug's sister that looks after the kids when we need someone. I have to get some more things for Doug, I have 2 shirts on lay-away for him.

Things in Donna-Leigh's life aren't any better, damn I wish Pat would open his mouth and tell he what he's thinking, so maybe they can get this resolved one way or another. At this point I know her and the girls would be so much better if they were out of that situation, it's not healthy to live with someone who can't even be bothered to talk to you.

Breanna is sick and cranky today. Her and I can't seem to get rid of the damn cold. She has had a few melt downs already today, I'll be glad when I go see the phycologist on the 26th to see what she thinks. I'm so open to ideas at this point. I'll try anything that might bring out my sweet little girl that I know is hiding in there.

Nuff for now...

Josh did fine with his tooth removal. The dentist used latex by mistake, one of these days someone is going to make that "mistake" and we're not going to be so lucky. He was a very brave little guy, not a tear in sight!

LOL I just noticed that I've been ending every post with, "Anyway...".

Anyway, I just thought that was funny.... LOL

Our first snow day of the 2002-2003 school year! Ugg, I wonder how many we'll end up with this year, looks like we'll probably top our 10.5 snow days from last year. We aren't used to winter coming this early, it's a long time till spring.

Donna-Leigh got our tickets to Harry Potter!! Yay! Now just pray we don't have snow, I like Harry, but not enough to risk our lives in a snow storm.

Josh has to go to the dentist today to have a tooth removed for the first time. He's never had anything done except cleaning, he's very nervous about it. You would almost think with all the medical stuff he's been through, this wouldn't bother him.

I've got some of my Christmas shopping done, which is good for me. I'm normaly so slow when it comes to getting my shopping done. I'm trying not to spoil the kids too much, but still make up for the gifts that they won't get from the Troll and my Grandmother. My Christmas list keeps getting smaller I think, but that's not a bad thing, except when it's smaller because of death. It's been 3 week today since Nan died, I miss her, she was such a sweetie.

Anway, that's it for today!

I have to remember I have this here, I keep forgetting about it. Not much going on at the moment in our lives. I had to threaten Doug with divorce the other night, but he seems to be doing better since that. Sometimes I get the feeling he just doesn't want to be here with the kids and I and it's starting to affect Josh, and I won't let that happen.

Next weekend Donna-Leigh and I are taking the kids to the city to see the new Harry Potter movie, I'm really looking forward to it. Just her and I and the kids for the day, minus Breanna, I'm not that brave.

Speaking of my little angel, I have to go see the phycologist on the 26th about both kids. For Josh it's mostly to check and see if they think he has ADD, lots of kids with Spina Bifida do, and he does show some signs, so I'd rather we know now, so we can figure out some way to help him now. Breanna is going because of the behavior problems she has. I am at my wits end and don't know what else to do with her. When she has a melt down, everyone knows it. She'll kick, scream, punch, bite...you get the picture. I hate it and I want to know how to help her, so she doesn't have to do stuff like that. We've tried everything, timeouts, 1,2,3 and yes even spanking, but nothing works, she doesn't care. When I put her in her room she'll lay on the floor and kick the door.

My back is better!! Now if I could get rid of this cold, I'd be a very happy woman. I think my nose may soon fall off. ;)


Anway...snuff for today!