I'm back! This is actually working, I'm shocking myself! I still haven't gone public though, soon...

Well in the last week I have lost yet another member of my family, the only Grandmother I had left, so sad. My Nan passed away last Thurs., Oct. 17th at 11:05pm. I was right by her side along with most of the rest of her family. The thing that made me the saddest was that Jeff didn't get home in time to say his goodbye, but he got here, that's the main thing. That is 4 people I have watched leave this world. Nan went very quietly, just as she was through life. She just opened her eyes and took a few more breaths and that was it. Such a sweetie. Nan was always dressed perfectly in her dress pants, sweater and high heels. This woman even wore high heeled slippers! I think I out grew her shoes when I was in grade 2. Nan was a very tiny woman. She is going to be missed so much.

Wow It's been almost a year since I tried to work with this. I need a brain. I wish I was as puter smart as my best friend, DL.

So much going on, it would be good if I could get this working so I could get some of this stuff out of my head and onto the comupter, I find it is so much better if you can get your thoughts out into words.

It's a quiet day here, both kids are gone. Josh is in school and Breanna is at the Inlaws. I love it!!!

Ok, I'm gonna try this, but since I am such a internet dummy, it just might now work :)

It's a nice day today, and so far I've done a lot of nuthin. Both kids are home today, it's an inservice day for the teachers. I know we didn't have this many days off when I went to school, way back when.

Tonight is bowling night, woohoo! I get to go and keep score for the Little Misses, Breanna's team, there are 3 Breannas on that team, talk about confusion. Josh bowls too, but I don't get to see much of what he's doing, with trying to keep the girls from playing baseball with the bowling balls :)

I did something this week that I should have done a long time ago. I brought my Dad's Urn home from the funeral home. I feel so much better now. I didn't like the fact that he was just sitting at the funeral home collecting dust. So now he's in my living room collecting dust ;) Everyone is very comfortable with it being there. My mother even came down and saw it, first time she's seen it, because we didn't have the right one at the funeral, it had to be ordered in. At least I'm not dreaming of him every night now. That was starting to drive me crazy. I wasn't dreaming that he was still alvie, I was dreaming that he came back to life to tell me something, and he would die again.

I've had one hell of a headache for 2 days now, damn I hate these things. It doesn't matter what I take, it just won't go away.

Anyway, lets see if this actually turns out.